Excuse my rant. I apologize a bit, I really needed to get that off my chest. Hopefully now I'll be a bit more calm in class. I only have a couple more classes left, 8 I think that makes it 4 more weeks. I'm too excited for words about this class being over. I can't really tell you much of anything I've learned over the semester in this class. It's just crazy. And the sad thing is that it's not a joke. I love school, but I can't stand this class. I really wish I could. Psychology is one of the fields I want to go in to. But this class is giving me second thoughts. Hopefully it's just the class, which I think it is, but this class is making me hate the whole science.
I enjoy CALCULUS more, get that? Calculus. And that math drives me up the wall crazy because it's just so hard for me to wrap my brain around the concept of that math. But I'd almost rather be in there twice a day tuesday/thursday. Except in that class-no laptop, but at least I feel like a learn some. And I'm not always checking the clock in that class either, but in Psych, I'm checking it soooo often sometimes I'm sure time just freezes. It's that bad.
On a different note, I'm going to work again tonight. I really miss Disney. Gymboree isn't bad, I just don't know what I'm doing there. It's only my second job- but I would have thought some of Disney's training stayed with me. Maybe it's because I'm scared of failing. I'm absolutely terrified of failing at my job. It scares me so much. I won't really tell anyone that but it does. I'm always terrified of failing. I'm terrified that I'm annoying someone and they can't stand me. And I won't do anything about it because I'm so passive about confrontation I hate making people feel awkward, or guilty because that makes me feel even worse. Sometimes I put on such an act around people to be liked, and around others I can't even be me once I've gotten to know them for a couple of months, maybe even years. It drives me batty and I can pretty much guarantee that it's messing up my mental health.
