Classes and other shit

So I'm a freshman/sophmore at my college and classes had just started up yesterday and already am I not wanting to be there, I think it's the weather you know? It's cold and not fun to drive in and then walk like a mile from the car to where the college is located, I go to a community college and I drive everyday, but I just want to stay in and sleep, because for some weird reason I can't sleep unless it's like super late at night, and it kills me, when I have to get up and go to class, it's not like my classes are early this semester, the earliest one I have is 9, and that's a lab, class wise Bio's at 10, and that's, my earliest. But still, my head is in break mode, stay up all night, sleep all day etc. kinda the college thing to do huh? Well, not if you've got willpower, and I've got that, although sometimes I wish I didn't have it as strong as I do, sometimes I just want to let lose and be a normal college girl, but I live at home, don't have a boyfriend in a world where I'm the only one except for my cat,(my sisters have informed me that now I'm the only one who can dance to that song and have it mean something. Nice huh?)

So anyways I have two night classes one is borning as anything, and there's no eye candy :(
Same in my sociology class I really want a boyfriend this semester, but I really really doubt it. If I can't get a friend of mine can't bother to pick up his damn phone and text me his fucking number or reply to my myspace and facebook message, then how am I supposed to think when I really like a guy. I'm this close *holds up thumb and pointer finger about a centimeter close* from telling him to either be a fucking better friend or stay the hell outta my life 'cause I don't need godholes like him. He's done this shit before and I talked to him, but now fuck it I'm through with putting up with his shit. I'd hate to see what he'd be like as a boyfriend, I pity the girl who dates him, and he marries.

If I can do it anyone can...

I'm so sick of the whole "If I can do it anyone can" bullshit, I've seen it on 3 commercials in the past half hour, no lie, and it's driving me INSANE! Like with that online computer college thing, "I have a son and I never expected to go back to college but if I can do it anyone can," uhm, newsflash...NO not everyone can do it just because you can, what if a person had a family to take care of and not just their son, but their spouse and mother etc. and had to work FULL TIME to do it, I'm pretty sure they have different priorities and if I hear a story about them doing it saying if I can do it anyone can, then yea, I'll more likely believe them than the other person. Same thing with the whole weight shit, results not typical? then why put them on T.V.? So when you don't lose that amount of weight you can feel like shit because you don't look good enough to be on a jenny craig commercial like Valerie what's her face and Kirstie Alley? Diets don't always work for people. Me? I'm a picky eater and I can't stand the way certain things feel in my mouth, like strawberries, I just HATE the way the seeds feel I LOVE the taste of them, just can't stand the texture, it drives me batty. And all the weight loss stuff is focused more towards the skinny people who think they're fat, not the people who weight 200 lbs. or more, we're really the fat ones, I mean why waste my time on something that's probably not even going to work, to look better for people who I couldn't care less about what they think of me? If I stay the way I am I KNOW people like me for who I am, not the way I look, or what I can do for them, well I'm sure some of them like me for what I can do for them, but what can I say I'm a nice person I'm friendly to everyone even people who I really can't stand, and if you are one of those people I'm sure you don't know it. Of course like any girl I do talk about some behind their backs, but nothing hurtful, just stuff like I really don't like her here's why. I'm not one of those spitful little girls who have to hurt others to make myself feel better, because when I hurt someone's feelings I hurt too and I'm guilty for the longest time after, it's just not worth my time.